A vein

i enter this poem

sideways;

out of respect for Yemaya

 

i quickly find a space in my ocean of thoughts

a bubble, to shield my heart against the current

of fear

of desire

 

in this bubble I float at first, but then sink

to the bottom of Biscayne bay, i let the waves take me in

i watch as the last rays of sun drown

above me and soon i am alone

 

too dark for fish, too deep for thought

like being in a room with no light

i wave your hand but it isn’t there

my heart hammers in my chest

 

sinking to the bottom of the sea

when suddenly

a grey fin like an arrow shoots by

to catch me: a floating sinking pearl, soft and round, and bright

 

but now i’m rising

my shield-bubble wobbling

the grey bottlenose dolphin clicking

my shield-bubble bursting

 

and i gasp for air

 

i blink slowly as the saltwater burns my eyes

i realize now

she was there, in my darkest moment

all this time

 

i watch el sol Caribe melt into the sea

like a golden honey potion

spilling into the horizon

the saltwater’s stickiness like fire on my skin

 

but my fear is transformed

my desire transposed

both

washed away

 

i leave this poem

frontways;

not looking back

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